a week in S'pore

Had been down to S'pore for a week. Coming down for an interview at the beginning of the week and free for the whole week. I treat this as an escape out of home. There's good and bad staying with family. Good thing is you can save a lot....and bad thing is you lose the freedom and space for yourself. Had always wanted to get a work out of KL so that I have the reason to stay outside. You may say that I am not filial but I felt that it's a better way for me and my parents. At least in this way we won't quarrel on things that we don't agree mutually. 
2007 is coming around and am getting older. Hopefully the coming year will be better for me (though this year is not that good) and for all too....

24 hours shoot!!!

It had been a long time since i had 24 hours non stop shooting. And this Softlan shoot is tiring and made me realize that i'm getting old.....crew call starts at 5.30am and shoots end at 5 am the next day.....after this....singapore here i come!

lucky? unlucky?

I m not sure whether to say i m lucky or not? every time when i wish for something it won't happen. But after that things realized, but always come at not the right timing......this month i should be having two jobs, one of it was the postponed job from last month. Unfortunately i was unable to take up the job, as i have a few interviews due to attend. I was thinking am I right to give up money for the interviews which still yet to know whether I can get a permanent job a not.....**sigh**

My birthday meal

...overcooked lamb chop.....

My Chinese Birthday Meal at Italiannes ..... (coincidently this year it's just one day apart) . Had a glass of red wine, spaghetti with mussels. Yummy.....


bread with olive oil and vinegar - a very special starter

Toyota DeepaRaya Ad

2nd TVC job. Prep in only 6 days, with 42 talents (dancers) .......luckily is not that hard as TV3's. Have been hearing the song on and on the whole day shoot......and sweeping confetti all day long......and past 12 midnight is my birthday....have to spend half my birthday on bed sleeping after a loong day shoot.....*sigh*

TV3 raya ad preview....

Done this job in 10 days time,rushing jobs with lots of details.....hooo.....and i survived!!!

see we play with 'kerbau' (water buffalo) and imagine it's only used for 2 secs in the commercial, what a waste. And we have 'ayam serama' (a kind of chicken that they rear it as pet, it's petite & corky). Forgot to snap a picture of the BMW and our hero house also......

My first Producing Job

my first producing job ended yesterday. accidentaly deleted the panaromic view of the 'huge' scene, got only this satellite van, which cost over millions dollar and is the one and only one they have. (sounds like a TV commercial) hehehee....

Travel

Do you like to travel? What's ur purpose of travelling? For de-stressing on all the hardship at work? for knowing other countries culture? or just merely for a walk outside the house?
For me travelling is the time for me to talk to my inner self. I love to travel to others countries to see how other people live in the life, how ppl cope with their daily life. Especially love to have a map to strolling by myself looking at the shops, looking at the people and at the same time asking myself what i really want. This is the only time that I can have myself to my own, where I can think......how I wish I have a job just to travel.....that will be extreme wonderful......

Souless body

After all these years, I just realize that I'm a body without soul. I lost my dream, my dreams full of stories are all gone. Have been believing that I need to gain more technical hands on experience on the industry and hence after I grad, I have been pushing myself to grab every chance of production knowledge whenever I can. Yes, I did manage to know how to handle a production but at the same time, I had totally ignore the story telling ability of myself which I had been putting aside for the 5 years. Hopefully it's still not too late for me to start rolling the stone again in polishing my story telling skill now......keep my finger cross....

I Hate This kinda feeling

Why am I always in the position being blame for what I think is right? Why put me in the situation that I must attend to all your call and I doesn't have a choice? or even I'll be blame for being 'too much' just because I don't comply to it.....tf was right, would you start a conversation of no where to your 'ex'? Or even would you take too much care if something happen to your ex family? Not that I won't care, it's just I feel that it's such a 'dilemma' situation .....Till now, I still think that I can't be able to care so much...... call me selfish or whatever.....

test food for Simply Penang

have been shooting the food photography for my cousin's up coming cafe - Simply Penang

My best shot of the day

"Our Brain" a metaphor for "Computer"?? or vice versa

Heard this funny but true statement from a drama series ...

(translated from Cantonese)
" Our brain is like a computer, however, this computer can only have a
certain RAM, it cannot be upgrade to a larger capacity. Hence, we need
to dump the unnecessary memory and fill it all up with the happy
moments.
Forgot about the pasts..."

I guess this is all we need to be able to live strong in this world.....

Bitchology

Found this on my email today, quite true piece of words to share with my frens....;P


"TO ALL BITCHES LIKE ME

BITCHOLOGY

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs,they call me a bitch.
When I stand up for those I love,they call me a bitch.
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way,they
call me a bitch.

Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart.
It means I live my life MY way.
It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.

When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it,I am defined as a
bitch.

The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being
everyone's maid,or when I act a little selfish.
It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly
am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken, opinionated and determined.


I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!
So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every
ounce of beauty
I hold within me. You won't succeed.

And if that makes me a bitch , so be it.
I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.



B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself

B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman

B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything

Send this to 5 women to put a smile on their face!!

"If you can't do something right,get a woman to do it."
Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving
safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in
sideways,chocolate in one hand,wine in the other, body thoroughly used
up,totally worn out and screaming...Damn, What a ride!!



Life is an attitude:
Attitudes are more important than circumstances!!!

depressed

Was being easily in depression these few days....feel that everything's just not right, but just doean't know how to deal with it....read irene's blog and had the same feeling as hers. I found no one to turn to when I'm in depression, no one to talk to but only to my own little voice. Reading her blog about boycott thing during primary school (we are classmates) really remind me of the bad memories I have during that time. Although now, there's nothing between us friends, but the memories of that time really sadden me. Until now, I can't made myself mix up with people so easily. I prefer to have lunch alone, rather than with my colleagues, cause I can't seem to get myself into their conversations. It's not that I doesn't want to, however there's just no common point for me to put myself in. When come to think of it, it's so funny. Some of the time, I can just easily get acquaintance with some strangers, but some of the time, there's just no click at all. It's so hard to get someone to listen to our heart as we grew older.....

the world is soooo small

read from an ex-colleague archive blog and found out that she's actually a fren of my 3 month old fren - a happy going guy who had committed suicide. This happen 4 years ago. Knew him when I first joined the master part time class. and it's merely 3 months. All of us was shock and super shock on why..... This is like asking why all the time but no one will ever know the answer eventually. Love this sayings of Forest Gump "Life's like a box of chocolate, you'll never know what you gets" Chocolates can be bitter and can be sweet. But you can only know once you experience it with your taste bud. That's the reason we shouldn't afraid of experience them and I'm sure one day you will get the "sweets" of life. If we let ourselve to take a step further, at least there's a chance even it's a minimal one, but If we forbid ourselves at the first place, you gain nothing. Life's precious, live it up!!!

Dilemma ...as usual!!

I know i had been missing for the whole month. If you think I'm busy with work, I'm not. Not working for the past whole month and not even a single penny dropping into the pocket. Have been so frustated. If it's not becoz of it's a temporary jobs I wouldn't have accept it. After all this years, I still can't convince myself to do commercials as my living. I don't like the way the Agency's control all, telling you what to do by the fact that they don't know what should be done. Still prefer to be doing TV programmes or documentary where I can learn the cultures and lifes of the people around me. I find myself always in a thirst for various kind of knowledge. Don't know whether this is good or not for me as some will say I'm not focus. Don't know why, it's just I'll be curious over anything that I doesn't know and hope that I can know it in deep. But sometimes when I sit down and think, should I continue to be like that or should I just pick something up and focus in it? Now I'm in dilemma, should I do Commercials for the sake of the money or should I go back to TV for the sake of satisfaction?

Dilemma

"Dear, I am going to XX, just let you know that I have called XXX to ask him to give you a chance for prod work. I think he iwll consider my recommend, anyway i am not sure he is ok or not, but i hope you have a job. keep in touch"

when i saw this sms displayed on the phone, my heart ache. I feel so touching and unexpected that someone whom i thought had always been neglecting my feelings and don't remember my words actually done something to help me....i was totally speechless at that time and tears just fell down uncontrollably. In a way, I never thought to ask him to help, as i just feel that i should get the job by my own means and not through others help. I was always in dilemma when i comes to this situation. I wanted the job, but I doesn't wish that I got the job because of someone's recommendation. If I got the job, I'll be feeling like I am "using" a fren to help me get a job,"using" his "good relationship" with others. I wish that I got it because of my own capability. Maybe someone will says, c'est la vie, we need recommendations in order to reach our goals. But it just can't convince me. Any comments?

New House for my Bao Bei

transporting through my ATOZ ..... look at him, scary scary man.....

reach destination ===> new house

walk into the house compound....but oops retreat again....Bao Bei:"whose house is this??? RUN!!"

Finally , in the house......wanted to rush into my house now!!!

bye bye....look after the house, Bao Bei

What breed of Dog are You?

You're a Bernese Mountain Dog!

No bones about it, you're a good-hearted, people-loving Bernese Mountain Dog. Down-to-earth and loyal, no one works or plays harder than you do. You put your nose to the grindstone when it really counts, but you never neglect your social calendar. Simultaneously strong and sweet, you're very tuned-in to the feelings and needs of the other dogs you run with. Without having to be asked, you always have a helping paw to lend and a sympathetic shoulder to lean on. "Communication" is your middle name, and when that's paired with your unswerving devotion, you get a breed that everyone respects and trusts. Woof!


What Breed of Dog Are You?

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End of holiday

Finally, RESIGN today!!

After 2 1/2 month of "working" in the company, I finally quitted. Why do I quote the working word? Coz this 2 1/2 month is really and merely a work of nothing to me. I have totally no interest in the job and every morning going to work , i just can't kept thinking to quit. Maybe my decision is wrong at the first place, I shouldn't have the thought that I will like / be in love with commercial although I thought maybe when I first graduate I don't got the chance to understand it better. But now I know what I want. Being in the commercial line is totally a no-satisfaction job at all. You won't feel content and actually feel nothing after you have completed a job. I can see it's more like a daily routine to me if I continue to be in it. Wherelse in TV line, it's totally another story. Although the money is not that good in TV, but the feel of contentment is pretty good. You can learn life of people and even life philosophy from the people involved in making the programme a sucess. and after that, you can really see the result of your hardwork. Hopefully, I do not make the wrong choice this time!!

Two Vision ?

Found this interesting from Kea's blog. Reminds me of always seeing things in both view -- optimistic vs. Pessimistic

Dogs fighting !! wah cha ~~~ Just playing only.....

A Big Smile =) I win!!!

Never listen to Insurance company!!!!

I made a medical claim with Hong Leong Insurance last year (company insurance). At first they handed me a form and ask me to visit the doctor to get the medical report and I was charged RM 50 for that. After dragging for 6 months, I got my check, and the amount is less RM50 . And the explanation I got is medical report non-claimable. Now who asked me to get the report at the first place, and who made me pay RM 50 for nothing? Damn PISS OFF now............

意志消沉

...meaning my enthusiasm in this industry is getting lower and lower.....

haven't been getting news from my "shed of light" after more than a week now.....had been asking what's the status and I get no reply...... getting more and more boring and low energy.....

Unleashed your CREATIVITY

Found this "Electrical Goods" man in Jusco, 1 Utama yesterday

See how creative they are to stack up with all the electrical goods, even the hair is made up of pots handle...... Good Job to whoever did this.....

My Johari Window

Came across this unique little window that helps one to learn more about ourself. Anyone mind to let me know myself better? thanks a lot ....muakss.....

boring shoot

Having a Japanese client over here for a car commercial shoot....
this is the most boring shoot that i had ever involved in, been ask to be a wardrobe coordinator which there's nothing much to do.....
All i can see only nice car and beautiful Jap celeb, Noriko ....so sorry forgot to take her big CU

to secure or not to....

Have you ever been working until every morning you just wanted to think of some way to avoid yourself getting to work?
This is what I had been through for the past 1 and a half month....After working for all these years, this is the first time i'm having this feeling. I feel myself like working just for the sake of money now and totally not for the sake of any interest at all, be it for my future career or my interest in the job.....wanted to let go of this just like that, but i'm too timid to do it without anything in mind what's the next move....i admit i'm the one people that need security in life....tried very hard to convince myself that i got nothing to lose but I just can't.....can't really imagine what will happen when later on in my life i have more commitment in life, i believe my need of "security" will be much more stronger....any suggestion on how I should deal with this?

Shed of light

I found a shed of light in my life .....that feeling is really like a hand dragging you out from a a dark room where you can't even see anything.....will tell you what if everything's successful... =)

18:30 19 Feb 2006

This is the time my companion for 10 years leaves us. My old dog, Lucky passed away struggling yesterday evening. Was so sad and cry out ... His two sons seems like really know what's is happening and had been so quiet and good after that.



Good bye Lucky .....

One more leaving their bachelorhood!!

On the recent Valentine day. my best friend got herself registered! That means I'm loosing one more friend in my circle of singlehood friends. Looks like the circle is getting smaller and smaller. Congratulations to those who are married and you got my fullest blessings .....

Are you married?

Or are you getting married soon?

This 2 question had been asked by my frens (and I mean not only one) around me whenever we meet. This includes frens who hadn't been keeping in touch and the first question that is asked when we meet. Why? I had been wondering why am I been throw on this question so often? Do I look like someone who will get married so fast? or I behave like marriage is everything to me? Well. to all of u out there, I am not like what you thought. I am a very career minded girl. To me, career rank the first, especially for a woman. That is the most important 'insurance' for a woman's life. And I'm not that kind of person to be happy with a wonderful marriage life. I'm not saying that marriage is not good. It's just that to me, even after marriage, I also need to have my own career life rather than putting all the hope of my life on my future husband. Every one have to be responsible for their own life and not depending on others to decide your life right? I am starting to feel more and more like a female chauvinist...=)

Life goes on...

After a week of holiday, I guess the whole Malaysia is back to work again today.....Had been visiting frens, eating here and there and tummy is already out....:( Every year this time I think all of us, especially the girls won't stop eating their favourite dishes and tidbits....To me, I don't care as long as I can eat what I like and do what I like....Even if I'm not eating that much of food, I will get the tummy also since I was 'force' to seat in front of the computer all the time....So why care more? Enjoy first...Ha

This new year is quite boring for me. At this age, most of the frens are either getting married or already married. Usually, CNY is the time we meet up with old frens, but since the married had gone back home, and the to-be married are busy preparing. So, believe it or not, I only meet up with two of my frens only for the week holiday. This NY let me realize that my frens are really too little, looking at others, they can meet up with different frens everyday. Am I that hard to get along with? Am I a 'good' fren? Am I a redundant when I am going out with my fren? These question always comes up to my mind... I guess this year resolution is to really sit down and think who am I....

HAPPY CNY

Time flies, still remember last year CNY in HK, in their 'flower market' and now it's another year already. This new year is a bit boring, but have been busy for the NY eve and first day of CNY. This is what I am busy with



Of course I am not the 'chef' here, just a helper in cleaning the veges hehehe....This is a new era, who says girls must know how to cook. Let the guys share the burden too, rite?

Visited this temple far away in Banting, it's almost 1 1/2 hour drive with my new car. How tired it is, if it's not because of driving my mom there, I wouldn't go for the 2nd time.



My wishes for this: "May everyone have a prosperous New Year" and that includes me too!!!

260106

260106, this is the day I finally got my first car ATOS PRIMA.




Had been paying an extra 200 bucks for the plate no. WNS1002. I found it out to be a cute pattern with the 'S' at the front and a '2' at the back.

Tried out my car to work this morning, doesn't dare to speed it, since it's new yet. Hence, it's a little like under power. But never mind I'll wait for the 2000km and runs it at the highway, hopefully that can boost up the pick up.......

Finally!!!

Yes! At last I got my car! After all the hardship for the whole week, I am finally going to do my car registration tomorrow. Since I did not have adequate documents to support my income, the banks had not approved my loans. Doesn't understand why must the banks look at whether ones have payslip or not, why the 'payslip' people can have their loans approved, but those with income but without documents just can't got approved. How many people really declared how much they earned??

Just keep my finger cross that I can get my car registration and road tax smoothly this time....

My noisy dog Wang wang

Stop 'wolfing' plz. Whenever 'wang2' wants to attract our attention, he will start crying like a wolf. This is how the dogs will look like whenever they saw FOOD....


I have three dogs at home which looks like dalmation, though it's not pure breed. This 'wang2' is my father's pet

He's the eldest of all, but I don't like him, b'coz he always tends to be jealous on my 'Baby'
Isn't he cute with the little black spot? 'Baby' is a male but he acts like a girl, he wanted people to pat him so much just like what girls like others to do. He likes to use his head to rub on my feet. But believe me, whenever he does that, you will found him so cute and forget all of your worries......My parents wanted to send him off since we wouldn't have enough space for three after we shift....but they never know I will send him off to somewhere where I can always visit him and at the end, get him back into our family....haha sounds sneaky rite.....you will know later....